Short Autobiography of the last 3 months.

-If you put everyone's problems in one big pile, you'd take yours back.

I can't pretend to be depressed over the last three month's events. Because really, I'm not. Everything that's happened is unfortunate. It really sucks. But I have a life to live and I've just got to move on. Plain and simple.

So, the last three months have been interesting? Difficult? One hell of a ride, to say the least. We got out of the Marine Corps, I lost a child, I lost my mother, I nearly lost my marriage, I started school. Well, I'm alive. I'm here. I'm strong.

My name is Anna. Well, to be technical, my father named me Anna Maria Katherine Davidson. But when I married my high school love, I dropped my maiden name & picked up Ennis. I also prefer just to be called Anna, because the rest is a mouthful.

I'm twenty and a half years old. I was bound in holy matrimony on December 26th, 2007 at age 18, to Luke Ennis- a Marine and high school love, also age 18. On January 17th, 2008 I found out I was pregnant with my first son, Christian [who is now 9 days shy of 1 year]. He was born on September 12th, 2008 in Camp Lejeune's Naval Hospital [North Carolina].

February 13th, 2009 I found out I was pregnant with our second son, John Parker Ennis. Twenty weeks into the pregnancy, I found out that he had Spina Bifida [incomplete fusion of the spinal cord] and Anencephaly [lack of a brain]. Ironically, it was less than one week after moving back to Alabama [after being discharged from the Marine Corps]. It was then decided that I would abort the pregnancy because there was an absolute zero percent chance of John Parker surviving. I was put into labor and delivered at Huntsville Hospital.

I never got a chance to see him, but one month after I lost him I was able to look at the pictures they took of him. His ashes sit on my bedside table. I often reflect on the pregnancy. His due date would have been October 2009.
Exactly two months after John Parker died, my mom died. We still don't know why, but my guess is from the Alcoholism. She never got to meet Christian. I was the one that made that decision, in order to protect my son. Planning her funeral was difficult, speaking at it was harder, but knowing how broken and hurt my sisters and brother were nearly killed me. I never cried though.

During that summer, I took a Nurse Assistant course at the American Red Cross. I did this knowing that I was going back to college to get my Associates in Nursing. I plan on working in the medical field while going to school to gain experience and knowledge.

BY THE WAY! I'm a big fan of Jesus. I wont hit you with my bible, but I will share my love for him with you, like I'm doing now. :)

So, moral of this short biography is-- I can't stop...can't slow down. I've got a life planned and not much time to do all I want to do. I'm motivated! Oorah.

- Anna