Today I'm reminded that my "due date" will be in just a short 10 days. I'm working on doing what my therapist told me to do & letting down my emotional wall that I've built over the last couple of months.
An old friend [aka crazy ex bestie] got pregnant right after I did. Her daughter was born right before my oldest son. I see pictures of her bulging belly and am reminded that I'm supposed to be 2 months bigger than that. I'm very jealous and I hold a lot of resentment towards her.
I'm crossing my fingers that I can cry again. It's been a long time. Too long.
Random Fact: I like to drink my applesauce in a cup through a straw
- Anna
- Huntsville, Alabama
- In seven months I dealt with the loss of my unborn son, the death of my alcoholic mother, losing financial independence, going back to school, and having my husband of two years tell me he wanted a divorce. So this, dear readers, is what comes from all of that.
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2 comments:
Anna, I am very sure you have heard this before but you are a strong, amazing woman, you have one beautiful baby, a husband who you are supportive of (even when it came down to deployment), you were willing to let God have JP, because you needed too, you go to school, have amazing grades, and hold a steady job. I know how hard it is to lose a baby and I understand that the due date hurts (mine was December 10th). I also know it hurts especially more when a friend is due around the same time, in my case it's my aunt a week before and my cousin the week after. If you ever need anyone to talk to please do not hesitate to send me an email. It's always good to have someone who understands.
Take care, you are in my prayers.
Lizz
also you have been awarded!
http://theworldssmallestviolin.blogspot.com/2009/10/dear-friend.html
Enjoy love!
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